6 months

Because of all the weird stipulations with Obama's health care changes, we do not have health insurance for another month. Pretty frustrating.

So until I can get Tommy in to the doctor without paying an absurd amount, I wont know for sure, but here are some stats I'm guessing he's at:

Weight has got to be around 21-22lbs. Yes. My. kid. is. chubby. No. I dont care what you think. In fact, I had one mom say that she thought her daughter (who is a month older than Tommy) was achieving milestones fast because she wasnt fat. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Ok, how about the fact that 1- she's a girl, (girls are faster at everything IMO) 2- she's a month older and 3-every kid is different. Maybe its the best of my emotions getting to me but damn I thought that was rude.

Speaking of his food, he does a 6oz bottle every four hours, and goes from 6pm-4am with no food....

He sleeps great for me. Most nights, its 6pm til 4am. I do a feeding at 4am, then he's up for the day around 6. He's been really congested so we've been battling that, but he does great at night.

He's starting to get the hang of what to do when he's on all 4's. A little. I saw him scoot back in anger yesterday. He can situp pretty well, still a little uneasy and would rather be lazy and lay down but he's getting there.

I still swaddle him. Not sure when to stop. If I will ever stop. I dont want to listen to endless bouts of crying or "sleep train" - we do so good right now. I guess when the time is right I'll know.

Introduced a little bit of food. We do it like 1x a day. He's getting used to it.

He loves to jump in his bouncy seat. Even when I hold him to standing position he tries to bounce. Silly.

I'll post a few pictures when I snap the official "6 month" photo. Which I guess technically falls on March 2nd since there is no Feb 30? Weird.

Happy Thursday

Unexpected Goodbye

Life sometimes has an unexpected way of going.  I know we cant control alot, but sometimes it feels like we control nothing.  

Its kinda of funny, we used to have 3 dogs, then had a child and 3 dogs. Then had a second child and 3 dogs. Then 2 kids, 2 dogs; 2 kids, 1 dog (not for long); then 3 kids, 2 dogs; and now 3 kids, 1 dog.  I'm done with adding dogs to the family, for now.  Saying goodbye is so hard for me to do.

The picture with all 3 dogs, was taken the same day I found out I was pregnant with Bobby.  I will never forget it.  The picture above, Rocky, he unexpectedly had to be put down on friday.  All 3 of the dogs have passed.  All 3 died year after year; Moose in 2012, Rylee in May 2013, and Rocky 2014.  

While I want to know in my heart it was really Rocky's time, I cant but help to feel some guilt.  Awhile ago,  I laid down poison in the backyard - - well, I buried it - and I thought I had all but only put enough out to kill the gophers.  Well, our newest puppy Sadie has made our backyard the damn grand canyon and has dug craters and mountains that has wrecked much of the yard.  I think Sadie dug up some of the bait, or a dead gopher and either Rocky inhaled some bait or ate a gopher.  In any case, Rocky in the end had pneumonia like symptoms (or the vet thought some rare boxer cardiomyopathy) but I carry with me a heavy heart feeling responsible.  We will never know for sure, so I just pray it was Rocky's time.  

I sobbed friday when I had to say goodbye.  The vet recommended I not stay during the process because his breathing was already so labored it was going to just get worse as they put him to sleep. So I had to leave while he was still awake. Kills me.

Today, we were out back and did alot of cleaning. Sort of therapy too I guess.  I sat today by the doghouse we built for Sadie & Rocky and just sobbed.  I just cant believe the 3 dogs that were in this old crummy house are not here today.  

I guess I know why my parents didnt want us to have pets.

Time heals. I know it will.

Miss all 3 of these critters.

GS & M-I-C-K-E-Y

Alright.  Here we go:

Friday 1/31 Went and saw George Strait.  Alright seats.  Concert was good. Miranda Lambert opened for him, which at first I was like ehhh but she actually rocked the place and I enjoyed most of her songs. Excellent. Not excellent - getting to bed at 1am and Tommy waking up every.hour.on.the.hour!!! He is sick. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH

Saturday morning "wake up" haha. Finish scrambling around and pack. FORGET ESSENTIALS FOR ME. Remember everything for everyone else. Forgot about me. Hello motherhood.

Arrive at our hotel - Disney's Grand Californian Spa & Hotel. SCORE. Hotel is just breathtaking. Nice nice nice.  Walk to Disneyland Hotel for Character Dining at Goofy's Kitchen. Score.  Thats where most of the pictures with the characters are from.

Saturday night, sleep like crap.  Tommy still not feeling good.  Try our best to sleep but its harder than usual.

Sunday Morning "Wake up", get ready for the day at Disneyland.  Crowds not bad.  Head back to hotel around 3 for a little break/recharge.  Grab dinner. Head back to Disneyland, crowds even smaller. Ride Star Tours with Bobby.  Ride some rides and wonder why they are so darn scary! (Hello, Snow White is like a nightmare!)  Get a little bit rained on.  Head back to hotel around 8pm.  EXHAUSTED.

Monday Morning "Wake up", have a nice breakfast at Storytellers Cafe at the hotel - more characters visit.  Go to California Adventure.  Crowds barely around.  Ride some rides two times in a row.  Bobby is tall enough for some of the more adventurous rides - he rode Soarin over California, and then Grizzly River Run.  He went back for a second trip on Grizzly River Run but the ride closed/broke down! Boo.

It was fun, but then, it was uhhhhh not fun.  Thought Tommy would have done a little better sleep wise - and maybe he would have if he would have been feeling better.  He still has a terrible cough - been doing neubulizer and ibuprofen around the clock.  The fog of being so tired is still on us today - everyone happily lay for nap around 1 today.  Trying to get rid of the piles and piles of dirty laundry, finish hw and get my crap together.  Thankfully one more day of rest tomorrow then back to the grind with the kids and their stuff.

Hope you all had a nice weekend!